March 31, 2009
I just hit up the library last night and got some great new fiction releases that I’m so looking forward to reading!
In progress…Enclave, by Kit Reed – strange so far, but really good.
From the book jacket, “The world is in chaos: war, plague, global ecological collapse. Parents everywhere seek sanctuary for their precious children, the future of mankind. For those who are rich and powerful enough, safety can be found – for a price – at Clothos Academy….Chothos will admit only one hundred children before it is sealed off – perhaps permanently – from the terrors outside.” Sounds cool, huh?? A far cry from my usual Nora. 😉
So what are you guys reading? Let’s pass around some ideas!
March 30, 2009
Since Bailey was a puppy, she has always loved the car, so between that (and the fact that we were totally obsessed with her, lol), we ended up taking her everywhere. One of the problems though, is that my softie hubby used to let her sit on his lap as a puppy – even while he was driving! And NOW, she expects to be there all the time, never mind that she’s about thirty pounds heavier! After one particularly harrowing trip, where I was trying to keep her from climbing into my lap and nearly drove into a tree, I decided it was time for Bailey to get a seatbelt.
I did some research and found a product called the Ruff Rider, that seemed to be good quality and well tested. It finally came in the mail on Saturday. When we put it on Bailey for the first time, she literally froze…would not move. It was the funniest thing I’ve ever seen. This big fluffy puppy, squeezed into a seatbelt harness, and frozen in place.
We tried it a few times until she felt more comfortable, and then did a couple test drives with it on her but not buckled into the car. Yesterday afternoon was the first time we strapped her in…again, as soon as she realized she was buckled, she froze. It took us the entire half hour trip to Home Depot for her to realize she could still move with it on, and all she managed to do was slide down onto her belly and put her head on the console between us. We could practically hear her…”Mom?…Dad??…Why do I have to stay back here?? …Can I come up front with you…please????” 😛
Here’s a photo as we were pulling out of the driveway – she was frozen in that position for a good ten minutes. LOL
…and yes, the photo is blurry – it’s not your eyes. 😉
March 27, 2009
I’ve been feeling strange for several days now – dizzy…more and more as the day goes on, and then better once I get home from work. A few of my coworkers have also been feeling ill, so we were convinced it had something to do with our new building. Our company recently moved into a converted warehouse in South Boston, and there have definitely been some interesting coincidences.
(P.S. Don’t google toxic mold or sick building syndrome – just don’t. Especially if you are a hyperchondriac or prone to psychosomatic illnesses…our team is rapidly going downhill, lol!) After contacting HR several times with no final resolution, I decided I was going to work from home yesterday and today, while they tried to figure it out.
I’m sure you all know what’s coming… Much to my dismay, I felt just as dizzy yesterday afternoon, sitting at my kitchen table, as I had for the past few days at work! So I tried to take matters into my own hands…I drank more caffeine…extra water…took a Claritin…then called S who suggested a Dramamine. (P.P.S. Dramamine and I DO NOT get along, as I discovered last night.)
I literally was so out of it, I felt like I had been drugged. After an episode remarkably like “David after the dentist” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=txqiwrbYGrs (P.P.P.S. This video is a must watch ;-)), I passed out on the couch at 6:30. Ugh. Woke up this morning still dizzy but now with a headache. I guess I should call the doctor…
March 25, 2009
As promised, here are some before and after photos of the floors – finally!
(Disregard the random pile of shoes, towels, and Bailey…but look at that floor! Like glass, huh? 😉 )
March 24, 2009
…and I’m a romance-novel-aholic! 😛
I knew that I was pretty obsessed, but when I sacrificed getting to work on time this morning, to stop by CVS and buy a book to bring with me on the train (that left a half an hour later!)…I realized I had a problem. 😉
Besides being a total romantic at heart, I think I love romance novels because they allow me to escape. They’re never a challenging read, so I can quickly and easily get sucked in to a world that always has a happy ending – boy meets girl and lives happily every after, and usually gets pregnant to boot!
I was in need of some major escapism this morning – I was trying to snap myself out of my depressed mood, and all of the books that I’ve been saving to read required too much thought or sadness – so I stopped to pick up a Nora Roberts’ book, and it absolutely did the trick! I arrived at work (albeit, an hour later than normal) a happier person than I left home. Thanks Nora. 😉
March 23, 2009
I think one of the hardest parts of infertility is all of the WAITING. I’m tired of waiting to be pregnant…tired of waiting for my cycle to miraculously regulate itself…tired of waiting for some corporate suit in an office in Connecticut to decide whether or not to cover my fertility treatments…just tired.
I’ve been trying to keep my blog more positive, hence the reason for the lack of posts lately…just not feeling very positive over here. I’ve been trying to keep myself busy…working out, going to church, visiting friends, playing with Bailey, preparing for the in-laws’ incoming visit…but it just doesn’t seem to occupy enough space in my mind. It probably comes from having had to focus on cycle days and medication for so long, that I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore.
It probably doesn’t help that it’s Monday today…I’m not a huge fan of Mondays. 😉 I’m just trying to get through the day, looking forward to DWTS tonight…hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
March 19, 2009
“What I expect from my male friends is that they are polite and clean. What I expect from my female friends is unconditional love, the ability to finish my sentences for me when I am sobbing, a complete and total willingness to pour their hearts out to me, and the ability to tell me why the meat thermometer isn’t supposed to touch bone” ~Anna Quindlen, Living Out Loud
**Thank you to my wonderful girlfriends, for being who you are. Mwah!**
March 17, 2009
Hi all, sorry I’ve been M.I.A. for so long! Things are still crazy, so just a quick update… The floors are done, they look fantastic, the supposed dust-less sanding really was (!), and my folks are still speaking with us…so all in all, an unqualified success!
We’re having some friends over tonight for dinner to celebrate St. Patrick’s Day. It will be super fun, but a bit bittersweet. Each of the two couples has a sweet little girl (one is 1 and one 2), and while I love spending time with them, I always leave wondering when it will be my turn. When will I have my own sweet little baby to spoil and dress up in gaudy Irish gear? 😉
March 5, 2009
…well not really, but it sure looks like it! For the past three days, S and I (well mostly S) have packed and moved everything out of our living and dining rooms, that we just set up less than a year ago!
We\’re getting our floors re-finished today, and for the next 3-4 days, we\’ll be living with my parents across town – me, S, and Bailey. We are very lucky that my folks live close enough (and are generous enough!) for that to even be possible, but I\’m still dreading having to live out of a suitcase from now \’til Sunday…and that\’s not even mentioning the fact that I haven\’t lived with my parents in over five years. 😉 I\’m sure we\’ll have some good stories by the end of the weekend. Wish us luck!
March 3, 2009
One of my very best friends had a little boy on Saturday, and I’m so excited to meet him! I’m going to see them this afternoon…just counting down the hours! *Update* Just got a call from my friend warning me that the baby has a little jaundice and is not “holdable” at the moment 😛 and that she’d understand if I didn’t want to make the drive out there to see them today. She’s so cute. I told her that of course I still wanted to come see them, and that it didn’t matter if he wasn’t holdable, that we get to keep him (!), so I’m sure I’ll get to hold him soon. 🙂
That is the one thing that I am so thankful that infertility has not taken from me – the ability to be around babies and pregnant women, and truly rejoice in the miracle that is life. Infertility may have destroyed my control, my dignity, my body (!), and my bank account…to name a few…but at least it hasn’t ruined my ability to enjoy babies!
I know that some people can’t stand to attend baby showers or see baby pictures, and I am so glad that I haven’t had to deal with those (totally valid!) feelings. I obviously get sad that I don’t have a baby (or a bump!) of my own, but thankfully am still able to be genuinely happy and excited for those friends of mine lucky enough to get pregnant. I love spending time with my friends and their children…and almost have to get that “baby fix” from time to time!
With all that said, if my friends weren’t totally wonderful and understanding, I think it would be completely different. Most of my close friends know that we’re dealing with infertility, and they are all (mostly!) sensitive to what we’re going through. My friend who just gave birth is the most wonderful of all. She just completely gets it and always knows what to say, so it was (and is) so easy to be over-the-moon happy for her.
I just have to wait, and pray, and believe that God will bring me my baby when he or she is ready. 🙂