June 29, 2010
S’ 30th in pictures
S’s party was a rip-roaring success, so I just thought I’d share some photos from the big day.
Thanks to everyone who came out to celebrate – you gave S a night he will never forget!
June 18, 2010
Partner in crime
Wow, I can’t believe that a week has gone by since my last post…my radio silence has been a combination of a lot going on and total writers’ block. I had big plans to write an in-depth romantic post on our anniversary last weekend, but I was just too filled with emotion to put it into words. Our day was wonderful – a lazy day followed by a fantastic dinner out. We talked some more about our future plans, and my husband continued to amaze me.
It’s hard to explain how much his support and agreement means to me right now – partly because I don’t want it to sound like he doesn’t always support me, and partly because we’ve just never been this much in tune. There are obviously a lot of external factors – financial, medical, etc…that will affect our next steps, but for the first time, I know that we are on the exact same page.
There has been a lot floating around the WWW this week about the pros and cons of marriage, and again, I feel too strongly about the subject to say anything insightful at this point. Suffice it to say, I feel so incredibly lucky to have found, and be forever committed to, my soul mate. I don’t think S would be right for many other people, just like I don’t think many other people could put up with ME (!), but as my aunt said to me several years ago (after a few years of marriage to her second husband) – we’re not perfect, but we’re perfect for each other.
Speaking of my partner in crime, I’m in the process of simultaneously preparing for a 7-day business trip (to OH, on Sunday) and organizing S’s 30th birthday party a week from tomorrow! I’m due into Logan Airport next Saturday at 2pm and the party starts at 6 – no problem, right?! 😉 I’m just so grateful for my family and friends who are picking up the slack – thanks guys!
Hope you all have a great week…I’ll see you on the other side! 🙂
June 11, 2010
Naked dog
When I was home sick on Tuesday, S decided to take Bailey with him to work and try to get her in for a grooming appointment at a nearby salon. We’ve actually been really worried about her lately – she was really lethargic and hadn’t been eating – and we suspected that it was because she was HOT. The weather in MA has been insane – up in the 80’s and 90’s and super humid. Wonderful, but not so much for someone who’s basically wearing a winter coat every day. ;-P
So, without further ado…this is what happens when Daddy is responsible for communicating haircut instructions.
LOL!! So embarrassing.
Bailey is LOVING it though, back to eating and running around, so that’s all we care about. She’s like a completely different dog! 😉
June 10, 2010
Tour de therapy
Hi friends, sorry I’ve been MIA. I haven’t been feeling well for quite a while…and on Tuesday my cold turned into a sinus infection that was discharging from my EYE. I didn’t even know that was possible! Truly disgusting. So now I’m just trying to keep up my energy enough to do some paperwork that is due by EOD tomorrow.
I’m taking a break from work to write this post because I need to share two things that have given me hope over the past few days. The first is my amazing husband. Those of you that know us in real life or who have been reading my blog for any length of time know that S and I often butt heads because we are very different but equally passionate and stubborn. This entire IF process has challenged us like nothing else, but seeing how strong our relationship is after this latest disappointment has proved to me that there is nothing that we can not accomplish or get through together.
Four years ago, S would not even have considered adoption, and the amount of money necessary to do so would have sent him over the edge. Now he just wants us to have a family and more than anything, for me to be happy and healthy. He has been the one encouraging me to start thinking about adoption and keeps reminding me that I didn’t give birth to Bailey and Killian (now that would have been a feat!), but that we couldn’t love them more if we had. He’s even considering taking on a MASSIVE job that would give us the money we need to adopt in just about six months.
The other thing that he has done to suprise me recently was an incredibly positive reaction to my conversation with the therapist last week. Not only was he so happy that it made me feel better and super supportive about my decision to meet with her again, he also mentioned that he’d like to come WITH ME to meet her in the future. This from my husband who previously didn’t believe in therapy of any kind.
We have both grown and matured so much over the past six years, and I can’t tell you what an amazing realization that is just two days before our anniversary. I honestly can’t imagine going through life with anyone else, and I feel very lucky to be married to my true soul mate.
The other thing that has helped me feel better recently is what I’m calling my tour de therapy. It started on Friday with the IF specialist, and then continued this week – on Monday I met a fellow IF friend for lunch to talk about her experiences with infertility and adoption, yesterday I met one of my best friends for breakfast (who has been through enough in her baby-making journey that she truly understands what I’m going through), and next week I’m having lunch with another friend who has had baby-making challenges.
It has really helped me to talk through things with people who have been there, and to start working through some of my other options. I know that we have a long road ahead of us, regardless of our next few decisions, but I’m starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel and know that I will survive no matter what happens. And regardless of how it needs to happen, we WILL have a family some day.
June 4, 2010
Starting to climb…
…out of this deep, dark hole.
This morning I spoke to the therapist that my RE had recommended, and I think she’s really going to help. It is clear that she specializes in infertility – knew the right things to ask and say – and she also gave me some concrete ideas and things to think about. The thing that has annoyed me the most about therapists in the past is that they always tell you that “what you’re feeling is normal”. I know that! But I need you to help me process these feelings and move on with my life! I think that’s what she’s going to help me do. We’ll see how the next appointment goes…