December 22, 2010
16 week update, and a revelation
How am I feeling? Finally not feeling sick any more, but now dealing with a weird numb/tingly leg thing that started over the weekend. My friend was visiting from NYC and we did a LOT of shopping…which probably should not have been done in my high-heeled boots. 😛 Interested to see what the doctor will say when I see him tomorrow…I really hope this isn’t some sciatica thing that is starting NOW.
Weight gain? 0 lbs (up another 2 lbs, and back to my IVF/pre-pregnancy weight)
Cravings/aversions? I just had my first yogurt in 10 weeks – yay! – and I’ve also been able to stomach more vegetables and meat. But I still want pasta and carbs like whoa. 🙂
Milestones? Really starting to show and being able to tell/talk about our pregnancy. I still have a hard time believing that we’ll be bringing a baby home in 5(!)+ months, but it’s definitely starting to feel more real.
Looking forward to… Feeling the baby move SOON! I had a few nights last week where I thought I felt it, but nothing definitive, and nothing since then. I’m also really looking forward to heading to Ireland (in FOUR DAYS!) to see S’s friends and family…and our god-daughter who just turned 3!!
In other news, I had an eye-opening experience earlier today. I’ve been working from home today and was catching up on some DVR while wrapping up my work project…and ended up watching an episode of Guiliana and Bill. For those who don’t know, Guiliana DePandi (of E!) and Bill Rancic (of the Apprentice) have their own reality show – which I am obsessed with – especially since they are currently documenting their struggles with IVF and infertility. On this particular episode, Guiliana had complications after her egg retrieval (exactly what happened to me post cycle #2) and then got a devastating negative. This was going to be their last time, after suffering a miscarriage from their first cycle, and I was really rooting for them.
It was so hard for me to watch their pain, and all of the thoughts and emotions from our failed cycles came rushing back. For a moment, I was right there with her…and completely forgot that I was pregnant! I actually had to shake myself back into reality and apologize to my baby for forgetting about him/her. 😉 It’s just still so much easier for me to identify with the pain and sadness, than it is to feel part of the “smug pregnants” (to mis-quote Bridget Jones). I don’t think I’ll ever forget what we went through…and I’m actually glad about that. I know that we will always appreciate our child that much more for how hard we worked to get him/her, and I also think that it will make me more sensitive to others. I just can’t wait for this to stop feeling so surreal!