October 3, 2010
Shock and awe
I can’t quite believe that I’m about to type this…but I’m happy (and completely shocked) to announce that we’re finally PREGNANT!
Yes, you read that correctly…we are actually pregnant, successful from our FIFTH IVF cycle.
The whole morning was surreal… I had decided last night that I was going to take a pregnancy test this morning, because I was CONVINCED that the cycle hadn’t worked and I didn’t want to have to deal with another VM from the nurse…”hiiii J…we’re so sorry…” So I POAS’d first thing this morning and promptly put the stick back in the packaging and started getting ready for our beta appointment. As determined as I was to know the results before the nurse called, I also didn’t want to have to go for a blood test already knowing that it was futile. So S and I drove into Boston and back while I got increasingly testy and wound up.
When we walked back into the house, I ran upstairs to get the test, just to pull the bandaid off and get the bad news over with. I walked back downstairs and into the kitchen and pulled the test out of the packaging in front of S, with “see?” practically on the tip of my tongue…and then I looked at the test. My mouth dropped open and I said to S, “Is that a + sign???”
We noticed that the horizontal line was a bit fainter than the vertical line and I didn’t know which line actually meant pregnant…and since I had long since thrown out the original box, we ran upstairs to the computer to go online. S was like “I can’t believe we’re looking up whether we’re pregnant on the computer!” LOL! We determined that the vertical line was the one that made it positive, but still didn’t completely believe our eyes. So we divided and conquered – S made breakfast while I ran out to get some more tests – the digital kind!
Once I got back, I ran back upstairs (sensing a pattern here?) and did another test, and then flew back down to show S. He was like, “how long do we have to wait for this one?” and I whipped out the test that said PREGNANT. I’m sure it sounds insane, but even that didn’t convince us. We were so nervous to get our hopes up that S actually peed on a stick as well, just to make sure that they were working, lol!
By this time it was about 10:30 and we started wandering around the house, trying to find things to do while we waited for the RE’s office to call. S even ran out of things to clean inside and started washing the cars! At 11:30 (way earlier than normal), we got the call. The test was officially positive, with a beta of 886!!!
We spent the rest of the day calling and visiting my parents and some close friends…and just looking at each other in awe. I don’t think we’ll fully relax until the ultrasound, but for now, we’re trying to celebrate finally being pregnant! Our next milestone is beta #2 on Tuesday morning, so if you don’t mind, keep sending those prayers and crossing those fingers – we couldn’t be more grateful for all of the thoughts and prayers that were sent our way, while I didn’t feel strong enough to pray for ourselves.
So again, thank you! And thank you God for this beautiful opportunity. 🙂