September 17, 2010
And my hope comes tumbling down…
I seriously feel like Humpty Dumpty…like I’ve just been smashed to pieces for the millionth time.
Just got our fert report.
Out of 7 retrieved…only 4 were mature, and 3 fertilized. I seriously never in a million years thought that less than 6 or 7 would have fertilized – I just figured that if they only got 7, then they must have hand-picked the mature ones!
I honestly don’t know what to do or think now. I called my RE to see if he recommends us transferring all three (if they even make it to transfer) and if he has any ideas as to why we got such a low number. I guess it doesn’t really matter, but I just NEED to know.
I am so discouraged. 😦
Update: I just heard back from my RE. He reminded me that in all of my past cycles only half of the eggs were mature each time. So this cycle is comparable, it just seems lower because we started with fewer eggs. He’s still hopeful that by growing and retrieving fewer eggs that they’ll be better quality, and still seems to be relatively optimistic.
I also asked him about transferring three embryos and he was willing to discuss the possibility. However, he was pretty adamant that “age trumps quality” and said that he’s seen several instances where less than perfect quality embryos implanted in younger patients. He brought up the idea of selective reduction in the case of triplets, and when I said that we would never consider that, he said “then we can’t transfer three.”
So all in all, I’m still nervous, but I feel a bit better…just trying to stay calm and hopeful.