August 3, 2010
I met with my therapist again yesterday and, again, learned a lot.
At one point, I was telling her about my meltdown last week and said “and I just LOST it” and she interrupted me. “You didn’t ‘lose’ it, you experienced the deep sadness and grief that you are feeling.” She focuses a lot on changing up language and therefore perception, and this was one more place where she forced me to give myself a break.
The other thing that we talked a lot about was ways to distract myself from the bone-deep sadness I’ve been feeling. I sort of thought that keeping my mind occupied was a cop out – avoiding or ignoring the real issue – but she said that processing these emotions is going to take time, that there’s nothing else that I can do to make it happen more quickly, and that sometimes the best thing to do is just take a break from the sadness.
So I’m looking for ideas for good distractions. I love to read and did a lot of that this weekend (Stealing Fire by Jo Graham and Stay by Allie Larkin), but S starts to feel ignored when I read 24/7. 😉 I know that walking Bailey is another good idea – fresh air and exercise for the price of one. But what else? I need some ideas for ways to keep my mind occupied when I’m doing things that don’t require brain power…dinner, laundry, etc…