March 31, 2010
Day by day
Thanks for all of the insightful comments on my last post. I know that this fear won’t actually prevent me from desperately wanting, and continuing to try for, a baby…but it definitely adds another layer of worry. To be honest though, my job has completely taken over my life and I haven’t even had the time or mental energy to worry (or even think!) about our next cycle – which is kind of nice. Tonight is my last active BC pill of the first pack, so it will be another few weeks before I even have to re-start Lupron. All I’m doing now is the BC, Metformin, prenatals, and fish oil – which definitely takes a few glasses of water to choke down every evening – but is significantly less demanding than the injections. Right now, I’m lucky to take the pills within the same two-hour window every night, let alone at the exact same time which the shots require! I’m glad that I made the decision to delay our next cycle a bit, and hope that I’ll be “relaxed” enough by May to give our embies a good shot. 🙂
In other news, things are finally getting a bit better at work. I have finally made the rounds with my key customers and have started to organize things MY way, which makes it so much easier. Besides just feeling like I know what I’m doing a bit more now, I think it’s better because I’ve finally realized that I can’t do it all, so I’ve stopped trying. On Sunday night, I spent about an hour (when I should have been working) giving myself a manicure and pedicure, and that has seriously made a difference in my entire week. Whenever I look down at my nails, I smile, take a breath, and relax…partly because they look nice, but also because they remind me that I’m doing my best, and that’s all anyone can ask of me (and more than that, its all I can ask of myself).
So, I’m definitely not out of the woods yet, but I’m starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. (Sorry for the mixed metaphor there, lol.) To all of my IRL friends, thanks for being patient with my MIA-ness…I promise that I’ll make it up to you!