June 2, 2009
The universe is conspiring against me and mine.
In the past 24 hours, I’ve found out that a dear friend has officially put her house on the market (the aftermath of a very sad divorce), another friend has had a miscarriage (after she finally reached the three month mark and JUST started telling people), and my good friend’s sister found out that she might not ever be able to have children (due to an extremely serious adrenal gland disorder). Add all that to the stress I’m already feeling trying to get ready for our trip next week (wrap up work projects, do laundry, errands, pack…), and the fact that I STILL have seen no signs of OV…and what do you get? Total meltdown. Sobbing on the phone to S by 9am this morning. Ugh.
I feel a little better now, after a good cry, and a relatively productive day at work, but this morning was rough. Life just seems so unfair sometimes, that I have a hard time remembering my mantra – God has a plan for us, and doesn’t give us more than we can handle. Sometimes I wonder though…Why do the most deserving of people have to go through horrible things like the loss of a child, when others who don’t even want them can pop them out like Pez?!? Why doesn’t God give all of the healthy children to the people that want them??