March 16, 2010
For the first time in years, I cried on Sunday night…in anticipation (and dread!) of the week ahead. And that was after working 4-5 hours on Saturday and again on Sunday, so it’s not like I was even mourning the end of a relaxing weekend! I know that I did this to myself, which makes it hard to complain about it…but right now, this job is sucking the life out of me. I haven’t had quality time with S in about a month, and he’s starting to lose patience…and I’m just so TIRED. I just can’t keep up! I mean, I like all of the individual aspects of the job (I think)…there are just too many of them!
I realized after my last post that I was absolutely leading the witness…asking you guys questions in a way that you could only answer one way. But seriously, in the past few days I have done some real soul searching and have finally accepted the fact there is NO WAY that I could physically or mentally handle cycling right now. And even if I pushed through and did it, I’d be so stressed an exhausted that my embies wouldn’t stand a chance!
So as much as it sucks to delay MORE, we’re going to sit tight until April and hope that work dies down like everyone has been promising me. Wish me luck…!